so in i life where i dont know what is going on.
i'm lost pretty much half the time.
i'm too far gone half the time to remain sober and grasp life's concepts.

you might think i'm judging.
i don't think i am.
okay, maybe i am.

but when you see what i see and when you hear what i hear.
it wont be judgement.
it will be truth and observations.

and if i go about doing this in silence.
i wouldn't know how to do it.
i'll be so damn shit assed lost like how i am now.
even more lost than i am now i guess.


so the book was supposed to be the final page of this chapter.
and i was supposed to put a picture inside.
but somehow.
i have no idea how to print pictures from computers.
can someone help me please?
i guess i really need it.
considering that i dont have mr fix-it here.
knowing that he's sleeping like a pig after a free dinner session at sakae sushi (park mall)
with who?
not that i really bother.
so long as i'm not the one paying for it.
the hole in my pocket is still mending the last time we went to eat.

as i was saying.
i just hope that i could have said what i needed to say in the book.
and i dont want to offend anyone.
but since i know you well enough.
i'm sure you dont want me to tear any pages out.
its heartfelt.
its me in everything i could have said right now.
cause it got me emotional.
and i clearly didn't need that.
but its a stepping stone.
step by step away from you.
and thats what i need.
closure.
and i dont think i'll ever get that with every single thing i hide from you.
so its a confession of sorts.
and whatever happens after that.
i guess i'll just have to accept it.

i guess you're not everything i needed anyway.

but just tell them the fairytale gone bad.